Thursday, August 11, 2011

Wow and not in a good way

I would like to say that I can't believe that it has been so long since I have posted over here but I actually can.  Life has been crazy but good here.  I wish I could blame not working out and gaining weight on having a new little one in our house but I can't do that either.  She sleeps well and is on a great routine.  No problem there.

The problem lies within me.  I think I have given up.  I really want to lose weight and get in shape but just can't seem to get it done.  I hate the way I look and the way I feel but evidently not enough to do anything about it.

And lately I have to ask why even try.  When there are people that always have to point out the things that you either haven't done or haven't done well...why even try.  Ya know?

If you couldn't guess, I am not in a great place with this right now.  I am struggling and don't really have anyone to talk to about this in real life.  so I quietly go about the day hating myself for being so weak and fat.

I need some inspiration and some encouragement.  I need...something.  I just don't know what that is.  

1 comment:

  1. I wish I could encourage you, but ~whine~ I'm right there with you. I give it a half hearted try on occasion. Why can't I just lose this weight? I feel exactly like you - do I just not want to bad enough to really put forth the effort? I don't know... sigh...


Please talk to me! Encourage me and hold my feet to the fire. But be as sweet as sugar while you do it!!