Friday, February 25, 2011

Fit Mommy Friday

Well, it's Friday and I am checking in!!  Woohoo!  I wish this week had been better but it wasn't too bad.  I exercised a few times but not enough.  I watched what I ate and drank more water.  I have tried to get more sleep but alas it hasn't worked very well.  I have had some shall we say intestinal problems and they tended to hit at night.

My clothes did not get any tighter and my attitude was better this week.  I focused on being intentional about doing the things I need to and trying to be in a better mood.

It has worked mostly! heehee

I wouldn't call this week a resounding success but it was better and I'll take it!

What I really need is a trainer to come to my house and haul my hiney out of bed and make me work out.  But then it wouldn't be me doing it for the right reasons and so it wouldn't really matter in the end.  I might lose the weight but my heart would still be in the same place so it would be for naught.

No, this is my battle and I will wage war against apathy and and the bulge one little skirmish at a time.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

This is my Not Smiley Face

Two  Fridays ago I forgot to check in with my Fit Mommy's Group.  I didn't really have anything to say because I sort of fell off the wagon.  Then when I forgot to check in, the following week went downhill even further.  I have been sliding down the slope of self-pity. 

That slope is a slippery mess that tends to snowball on you until you are wallowing in the slime at the bottom with no hope of ever getting back up. 

Depressed yet?  I was.

I could feel the weight coming back on plus the extra five for that time of month and that makes for a very depressed unFit Mommy.  My pants were getting tighter and I could feel the energy draining from my big toes.  I was a mess.

Then tonight sitting in the bathtub trying to read my book, the water sloshed over me and it felt wrong.  My stomach jiggled and it hit me.  This is my fault but it is not hopeless.  I am where I am because I have lost focus (again).  I let my focus slide from Christ and becoming what He has called me to be-a healthy, physically fit whatever the size individual that loves Him, follows Him, and tells others about Him. 

I also focused on the big picture instead of the baby steps.  The big picture is a little depressing.  I need to lose 50 lbs.  That is a lot and seemingly un-doable.  I let that stop me from trying.  I let it control me. 

Tonight, the baby steps came back into focus.  Exercising-one day at a time.  Control my portion sizes.  Drink my water.  Doing my Bible Study daily.  Getting enough sleep.  Those are things I can do, one day at a time.

So, I am going to bed tonight happy.  I did my workout while Steven and the girls were at Bible Study.  While I was sitting in my bath, God was prompting me to get out and workout.  I knew that I would be even more unhappy with myself if I didn't.  So I did. 

It feels good.  Tomorrow I will continue with those baby steps and pretty soon there will be progress to see and feel. 

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

not so great

this week has not been going well.  I am not exercising...except the two hours shoveling snow tonight...and I have no motivation to do otherwise.

I am in a funk.

I have gained back a bit of the weight I just lost and I can feel the old lethargy and pessimism creeping back up in me.  I need to just do the next thing.  Quit whining and crying about it and just do it. 

For me.  That's what it comes down to, doesn't it?  Do I think I am worth the trouble? 

Good question.  Tonight my answer would be no.

That's not the right answer, though. 

I am worth it.  I am worth it because I am created by the Most High God and he deems me worthy. 

so tomorrow begins the struggle again.  and there will be a struggle because i refuse to give up.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Fit Mommy Friday

This update is going to be short.  I have the stomach flu again.  Steven gave it to me.  I am fighting the urge to, ya know.

So, I worked out twice with the Wii, shoveled snow two days this week for more than an hour each time, and today-nothin'.  I'm hoping that I won't lose weight by losing my lunch.  ;-)

My eating has been good, only portions sizes that I need and no extra snacking.  Feeling pretty good about that aspect of it all.  For now, anyway! lol

My water intake has been low, but not too bad.  Sleep has been iffy because Steven was sick most of the week and I slept on the couch so that I wouldn't hear him...ya know, throwin' up.

That's all for now, I am off to bed with some saltine crackers!

Head over to Got Chai? to check out the other Fit Mommies!!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


Monday I didn't get up early enough to exercise.  Why you ask?  Because my youngest woke me up before 6am.  She was throwing up.

Oh yeah, you read that right.  Here we go again. 

I was planning on staying home from our homeschool group until the very end when I have to direct the choir/play and she was just going to come and sit in the room.  That is until, she decided to throw up every thirty minutes.

Steven came home so I could go.  Isn't he sweet?

I got my exercise when I had to run around like a crazy woman getting them to their correct staging and then again later when I was teaching the choreography to the dance captains.  I was sweating by the time I was done! lol

Today the exercise came in the form of shoveling the drive-way so that Steven could get back home.  It was so deep that he couldn't have driven his car up to the garage! 

Hopefully tomorrow will come and no one will be throwing up!

A girl can dream, can't she?